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2009-03-30T13:10:00.002+08:00

I have been receiving different kinds of calls at work...
all kinds...that you can think of...

sometimes , i got impatient ,
sometimes , i felt like shouting my lungs out ,
sometimes , i chose to listen to them..
sometimes , i even give advices....

it made me wonder if i face problems in life , would i give myself
the same advices? be able to calm myself ? control my temper?
I doubt so ... but all i can do now is to ask God to give me strength to help me.

piggy has been back from taipei for a week now,
I missed her.
i remember ... when we were friends , we can talk freely ,
with whatever tones we wish , whatever words we wanna use...
without taking much considering of how it may make the other party feel..
or maybe it just didnt matter as much cos we didnt take what we said to heart that much...

but now , with the deeper attachment with one another ,
I realise , we couldnt talk carelessly or anyhow use words ...

Any forms of communication from me to her ,
has to be taken thoughtfully and carefully.

I didnt know a word said out of anger would hurt her this much ,
I didnt know an impatient tone would affect her that much ,
it makes me understand myself more,
makes me want to try my best to improve not mainly for her
but for myself to be better , more Christ-like. ..

I thank God for this sweet courtship!!! I am truly enjoying every part of it ,
it is not just a ' i love you , you love me' thing ,
but a pruning process ,
learning to bring glory to Him.

I attended my new cell group with new cell leaders!
refreshed , and excited to see what God has in store for us
through the missionary ( as our cell leader ) ,
good!

My 21st Birthday 4th April !
not sure what to plan for my party ,
...abit lost...hahas ,
maybe i should just sit back and relax
and wait for people to surprise me or something...
mmm....really dunno what to expect ,
just hope everyone would enjoy themselves ,
wont get bored...

my 21st bday wish? mmmm....let me think about it....:p

2009-03-06T12:12:00.002+08:00

Boo!

works has been tiring these two weeks ,
and it's stealing my sleep away !

But I give thanks to God still
for the two days rest at home after two days of shift works!
It allows me to spend more time with God, with myself :)

I am killing my brain cells on what to do on my 21 st bday party …
mmm… feel like having a small k box area so that people can sing …
(At least they got something to do than just sit and eat…) hahas
But still not sure, see how : p mummy treating me!

I am still stuck in Matthew :(
have not been consistent in reading the word of God,
faster faster faster wake up ! and be diligent!

Preparing WORD for this Sunday’s cell …
Jja you! And may God grant me wisdom

2009-02-09T15:57:00.002+08:00

First month of 2009 has passed...oh, what have I done for the very first start of 2009?
hahas I guess I didn't really purposefully go and reflect about it...

I finally had my POP after months of trainings , missed my peeps at camp :)
thanks to daddy and mummy and Tina for being there to see my saying goodbye ,
throwing my hat, celebrating the last day at camp...

I was uncertain of the posting I have got...a little regret of the little effort
and lack of prayers & seeking before posting...right now , I am learning to
submit to God...

Seeking for His will for my next step...trying to be clear minded on what I want to do
rather than following the flows , accepting whatever comes my way and thinking ..
that must be God's will while I did not even seek Him !

Applied for Uni...not even so sure what course I shall study! guess I need to
start working on my future goal.

whatever it is , God is molding me everyday.

My little blur girl took a wrong train direction home after dance ,
and when I finally met her ... she looked like a philipino maid! in her
grey tops and dancing pants..hahas ..SO CUTE! :P

We just finished reading Matthew! going on to Mark!
hoping this year , we will take a more serious note on our
growth with God!

Vday is coming ... !

'' there is no fear in love , but perfect love drives out fear...'' ~ 1 John 4 : 18

2008-11-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

hello hello !
It's been real long since Mr Tan visited his own blog !

He is going through and adjusting his new stage of life - NS..
wells...definitely face unexpected stress and people with all sorts of characters.

But Thank God ! Because He is SO GOOD TO Mr Tan!
Mr Tan beleives that in every situation God has placed him in ,
there is a purpose ...a reason..
which , though , is often realised afterward,it is still good for Mr Tan's growth.

Mr Tan misses his beloved girl... :(
Guess its a period of time when the two piggys being tested
and learning to walk hand in hand together
quarrels , challenges might come in ,
but what's so difficult for God?
Mr Tan is trusting God for strength and wisdom
to lead this beautiful relationship with his sweet girl.
Jia you! '' we can do it ''

Many must have so wanted to see Mr Botak Tan ....
hahas...
He looks just as handsome!!!!
and charming of course.

wells...
tired....
good night!

Pray for Mr Tan's health and spiritual growth.

2007-12-18T03:40:00.000+08:00

I’m back again after so long.. the songs by Olivia is making mi feeling all emo rather then happy. I guess the number of times I repeated her songs are uncountable… I’m really awe struck that how God has been planting people in my lives even when my capacity of loving people is so small. i miss people easily and I don show it tru actions but underneath mi my heart is. Whenever the familiar music is played, the familiar place I’m at, the familiar things I’m doing, all the past good and bad memory will slowly drift out of my memory. Its hard for mi to adapt to changes in my life but life always have to go on even when the most scariest thing happen. Be bold be strong yong jie. Another year is gonna past, looking back at last year I’ve got so many thanksgiving that God brought me through with his abundant grace and love. From simple things to things that make me cry, God is making himself so real in my life and no one can testify to it only mi the person that experience it. Looking back at this year my life is just like a sine wave, the lowest point- where I’m hurt, lost, angry, confuse, struggling, emo. And the highest point- where I’m loved, joyful, laughing madly, carefree, relieve!!! From a quote from forrest gump: life is like a box of chocolate, you never know wad you gonna get next. God din create us to be like a robot only doing good things that pleases him, but he gave everyone a choice of freedom. To choose right or wrong, good or bad making one’s life so colourful. Moving on to the next phrase of life is indeed challenging and scary. Shall stop thinking abt it, just live everyday happily enjoying the time spend with the wonderful friends and family around me and of course God my heavenly father, shepherd and friend. =) tschus!..

2007-10-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

I always never get the chance to blog something immediately. Everytime when i seriously wanted to blog sth, it sort of drag and drag..until a few days later.. Thats kinda weird, issit my habit of dragging???.. nvm.
Anw, i experienced the life of a kampong boy last sat. The birthday girl held her birthday at her ah-ma's bunglow at ponggol, so ulu until the transport to reach the place is taxi. ha. The journey of a kampong boy begins when her bro brought mi to to collect green muscles out in the sea.. Gosh, it only seem dangerous after i heard his dad said many ppl were drown down there..Thank God we took a styrofoam box to put the mussles and it acted as a float for both of us. if not i think by the time i reach the mussles i'll be exhausted. When we reached the mussles, haha the waves are pulling us away and after a while i was told to swim back shore, at 1st i thot y cant pluck some and put inside the box? we already swam so far. But after we swam on shore he told mi he felt that the wave is getting big and unsual,its better to be safe then to risk.It was an experience i think i'm gonna take home with mi..ha.he caught a cute little jellyfish and it look just like yang chen ling's hair. Thats not the end, we then went to the mangrove swarm to look for soil crabs, haa din know they can be eaten. Din really went into the swarm as its high tide, but caught an unlucky soil crab for being so obvious to us. haha. the oldern days kids always catch those 'long kang' fish, and i had a 1st hand experience too. A bamboo is used to hit the water so that the fishes will swim away from it, but they don know they are swimming towards a net.haha, we got a real big catch.. hundreds or so.. poor fishes. Oh, i also got the know the technic to draw water from a well. humm... its not as easy as i thot.. the well is so small and the buket is so tall. but all it need is technic.=) It seem that i was only 9 rather then 19 in the whole afternoon, kumpong boy.^_^. I think many kids now have already lost the fun child-hood the kids in the past had. Now is like the virtual world, everything is so unreal, fake, thus if i got a chance i would retire in the moutains where i will enjoy the nature, God's creation.

2007-10-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

Through It All. A song sang by hillsong. last week it has been played many times on my mp3 player even though its at random mode and sang it during worship again. How coincident it could be. But throughout the week i've been thinking and asking God y HE kept reminding me of the song. Finally the quest has come to a stop. Today's SM meeting was the answer to it.. We went through the meaning of LOVE, which is 1Corinthians 13:4-7. Suddenly it strucked me that the lyrics of the song coincides with the verses, which talks about LOVE. The song talks about our love to God because HE is faithful and will never forsake us through any storm or downfall in our lives. God is love.

Through It All- Hillsong

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
Im carried in everlasting arms
Youll never let me go
Through it all
Hallelujah, hallelujah

2007-07-20T01:37:00.000+08:00

before(sec2)

after(sec4)

missing of another friend to Aus

Lost interest in blogging.. but i'll still blog whenever i'm in the mood. right now i am.. Coz i just lost another close friend to australia. This dear friend of mine is willian. He is this cheeky, AA(attract attention), joker, pro drummer, psk(pang seh kia),crazy frend. A great friend that has make my life in secondary school so much more fun. nearly fought with teacher, kick down fan, kick broken eddie's hand, chest slap, broke pants, even got to be my victim when i kick the basin and hurt his left toe. Sorry mate, but maybe coz of this u will remember mi for life.. cool..ha. see la never study harder in 'A's now need to go australia and find that american punk head leader. tsk tsk. still remember yesterday at the airport, felt nth until the moment when hes going into the transit. saw his tears of bu se de juz came pouring out of his eyes, i started to feel " i'm gonna miss this wonderful friend for yrs.!!" cant hold back my tears either. willian i gonna miss u juz like how i miss andrew 3 yrs ago. Thanks for the letter it touched mi when u said" let make a pact, when we married ask the other 5 to be the groom's bestman and even our kids to be friends with one another." people, it may sound childish but really i hope the pact will come true. =) other then the willian i mentioned there are 4 other people that i'm gonna mentioned. Andrew- hes a american citizen, but don look like 1 and don ssound like 1.ha. a mad guy that i 1st made friend with in sec1, broke window, AA, and loves to recruit new recruits. a big size yet eat the slowest when it comes to laksa.

Eddie- dark, skinny, shy, psk, my everyday buddy to look for discipline mistress. start calling people names in the end got us in trouble.ha.. don juz spend time with ailing still got us lehz.hah

cassidy-short, commando, cute(sec 1), rude msn user, got us into trouble with malays in sec 1/2, 5 fingers with 3 rings. lolz. and a liverpool supporter of course!. =)

ziyang-metrosexual,skinny, shopping buddy, always sacrifing time to help planning things, fought with the most ppl even gals. haha.. weird character and a liverpool supporter again!! =)

Was named famous 6,ong ji dong,AA kias b4, but they are the friends that i been tru thick and thin with in sec sch. been yrs since we unite coz of the aussie and now got 2 aussie haiz. friends forever ! =)
sometimes really when the people that are close with u and see ueveryday u will tend to take it for granted. until when something happen or when he/she is leaving, then u will start to miss him/her.lets start to cherish the friends around us every single moment of the day. i seldom say i love u to my frends but here goes..i love u all ongji's friend. u think u are yes! then thats u!!

MIXED feelings

2007-05-22T01:36:00.000+08:00

ITs been a long time since i blogged...
but many things has happen since...
too many to be mentioned...
There are thanksgiving, distractions, temptations, challenges...
Felt joyful!!!,worried, fearful, Sad, discourage, relief, angry,frustrated...
Everyday is like so different...
Being a Christian is really not easy... Since the day one have commit one's life to God many trials will come into the picture... At times i admit i even fall, i hide from God, i took the incorrect path... But his grace is always so sufficient for me... I was turned back to GOD through many different and unique ways...
Recently, i felt i am going back to my past again... PAST=BAD
Nearly pick up a fight, quarreling and of course displeasing GOD in too many ways...
Satan is really smart, not only good at scarying people but is always there whenever one heart is on the verge of sinning against GOD. He will juz give us a simple touch and we will fall, and he won. We cant withstand the evil one with our own flesh but with the help of God , we can easily withstand all the "touches" by him to make us sin...
Lord let me hold nothing back and allow you to be the central of my life!!!
take my life...

2007-04-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

when corny told me today is the last day for CM2007 registration, i was getting ready to sign up. but need to ask my parents 1st...

mi: mummy i going south korea
mum:For wad?
mi:CM2007..
mum:issit the mountain prayer thing?
mi: i donno..(she told mi in cheena i don know)
mum:when??
mi:1st week of sch.. end of june
mum: then cannot LA!!!
mi: but y?? its a student conference very meaningful de
mum: CANNOT!
dad: u always go with this go with that everytime come home so late.. DON GO!
mi: even if i come home early u also wont talk to mi.. i only telling u all that i going..
mum: ur wings hard already la.
mi: very hard to explain to u all in chinese.. but i'm going. don care..
dad: NO!. study comes 1st.
mi: nono..don care.
dad: u always like to do things u like..
mi: i don need ur blessings but only GOD's
dad: if u don have our blessings God also wont be pleased.
mi: stunned and go bathe le..haha.

had a little quarel with parents abt CM. but not too serious..
was actually having the mindset that if the registration is still open i will go for CM2007. but when things juz don goes my way( parents don allow) i will still go.. but dint realise that if i go without my parents blessing i also wont go happily and joyfully. Thank God to make mi realise how important parent's blessing to a child is so important. =)

touched~

2007-04-18T01:21:00.000+08:00

kaizen adventure camp

went to a campsite in malaysia.. its a run down campsite in Pulai wst of johor. the area has a back drop of rainforest.. all surrounding it. does many things....
1)mountain trekking
2)saw leeches!!!! got bitten!!! caught 1 but died.. never give it enough air and water
3)water trekking!! imagine half ur body inside water.. cool stuff
4)eating with hundreds of housefly...scary!!!
5)swimming in the waterfall... guess wad.. leeches in the water!!!
6)had a great fall...

in the night, when i look above.. saw stars... too much to be seen. it cover the whole black sky. Too nice to be real. How wonderful is God's creation.

can see singaporeans are too pampered and all.. haiz.. kept complaining abt the food, leech, housefly. Really thank God i'm born in singapore!!!

was feeling excited after li ting spoke to us about being an SM. Hope to find the joy in the lord in the things i does..

2007-03-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

Humility

When i think of it. It really struck mi.. Are we proud and plastic(fake) people?.. Yes we do-y?- coz we wan face, we wan fame, we wan company, we wan comfort.. humility..umm.. today went TAKA's KFC for dinner. and there was this comotion that happen while i was inside the taka shopping centre( linked and able to see KFC) while looking at many super nicly decorated toilet bowl brush. This *toot* guy threw his tray filled with freshly made cheesefries, 2pcs chicken and drink. Heard this *prumprumprum* sound and saw the place filled with all the food then that guy juz walk away leaving his gf sitting there. I guess they had some argument... and the gf left ard 30secs after the guy went away.. gosh.. the place was messed up. BUT the point is this>> here comes a cute old aunty ard 60+++ cleaning up the mess the *toot* guy had made! the cheesfries,chicken,drinks were everywhere... HAI!. wanna vent your anger also not the way to. making OTHER ppl to clean the mess for u!! Slowly and abit steadily the cute old aunty went to clean the mess.. coz i went to eat KFC after the mess, i still saw the cute old aunty's face not frowning but can see the humility and enjoyable cute old aunty still going ard collecting trays and cleaning it. As i saw her going around with her little steps and frain body bending down to pick things,collecting and cleaning, i was touched by her. Shes so old yet does this kind of things, wads more shes still put on that little smile there . ='( really took my hats off .. y cant i juz do things like her, so filled with humbleness and joy. i really was turn-off by that *toot* guy. swing and run. -.-" Can go find that cute old aunty at the KFC in taka if u cant visualise wad i said..haha.. =) humbleness is wad i long for...

2007-03-27T00:51:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD!!!

Woke up and getting ready to SSDC for test. I saw the heavy clouds outside and heard roaring thunders, so i was very saddened.. was telling God " y like that???" then all the way i had already lost half of the battle before i arrive there.. But the weather changed soon after i went inside the warming up car.. i really wan to thank GOD for today... don think i can pass without his help and alot of mistakes may turn out major but the tester din even deduct.. =O. After the test those that pass need to gather in a place and as usual when u see familiar faces that pass with u its always so joyous.. congratulated each other and talk non-stop about those things that happen..Can see the hapiness from them =). Thanks be to GOD!!! now my mama is worried abt mi after i pass.. haiz.. mummy when can u stop worrying abt mi...haha.

2007-03-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

300

Before watching this show... people told mi that its not a nice show... But after watching it.. i don think its a bad show.. i like it!!!.. I think those scene where the 300 most refine soliders of the country SPRATA holding their heavy shield and sword getting ready for battle and shouting" AHWooo" and raising their spears is super super cool.. can feel that each of them is ready and will fight all the way TOGETHER... if u wanna get a clearer picture can catch it yourself...those who don like blood and head chopping scenes can don bother to watch it.. =) wld give a 4 out of 5 for this movie... Lord i want to fight for u!!!..

2007-03-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

woke up with a head which is spinning... so decided not to go work .. took MC for 2 days.. Haven really had enough rest since ITP started. i think the 16+ hours of sleep is wad i owed my body... stayed at home to watch lakehouse. it was a love story... and the 2 main char are 2 different people that stay 2 years apart.. 1 is leaving in the future and 1 is leaving in the past. Forgive mi for the lousy explaination.. i was thinking " how can these 2 person be together?"one is like living in the year 2006 and the other 2004.. but in the end they got together.. those intersted to watch can borrow the movie from mi. Its so good to rest.. esp to rest in the arms of my FATHER lord. no worries to let us care abt and to really juz lie under his wings. How wonderful that would be. Its been a long time since i really felt that kind of rest.. =) the drug is making mi dizzy.. remember to drink REDOXON peoples! coz i see many many people are falling sick these few days. coz the weather is changing.. take care!~

2007-03-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

~cool~
~cooler~
~coolerer~
~coolererer~
~spot the real one!~
~coolest!!!~
got all these from the net.. however the dog in "one litre of tears" will top my list of dogs. =)

2007-03-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring day today... i cant believe i was sleeping while standing on the bus journey home.haha.. lucky din bang into people or fall.. finally manage to get this song played. Donno how i got hold of this song... but this is one song that is especially ministering to mi... thank God for refreshing mi and making mi wanting to be cheerful each day. =P am excited about my future. and the reason behind is because i donno wads my future will be like..hahahaa... Jesus take mi into your heart!!!

2007-03-04T01:58:00.000+08:00

Went for BB officer cadet orientation... took back many things there.. but got 2 things i wanna share...firstly this young pastor told us as an officer Boys are charged under you and its your duty to nuture them and also share christ with them. then he said next time God will ask you at the GREAT WHITE THRONE " yong jie, wad have u done to the boys i have given u?? i have given A,B,C,D,E,F.... to u and did u impacted their life?" ooh.. i was force to think not juz that.. but all my friend around mi... am i leading a good chrisitan life for them to see?? umm... HE then shared with us a story.... in africa, they always use mouse to make elephants work, coz elephants are scared of mouse.hha.. then there is is mouse and elephant where they are so close that you can see the mouse toking to the elephant everyday by its ear.. Then one day they are crossing a bridge.. the mouse said" whoa... i am shaking the whole bridge" but the fact is the mouse is sitting on the elephant and its the elephant that made the bridge to shake. SO we are like the mouse and GOD the elephant, we cant shake the earth with our own strength, the mouse wont make the bridge to swing, but Its tru God that we can shake the earth. =) i thot this story is quite interesting. .ha. God please break my heart down, and remake it to a pure heart that pleases you =)

2007-03-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

Beginning to do my job as a salesman without complaining already..haa.. Its a good sign. umm... today we stayed till 930 in SIM LIM SQUARE. was suffocating insdie a small room where 7-8 people are smoking away... we are having our weekly meeting, and i think my lungs becamebe darker.haha.. was offered 2 cigrettes by 2 seniors yesterday.. haa. 1 still say" wanna learn smoking?.. can use smoking as an excuse to go for 5-10 mins break lehz.. " KAOZ!!!.. but i got some personal thots abt smoking and ask mi if u wan.. =) Those smokers are juz burning away their money, but i think out of 10 smokers, 8 are super skinny sia.. i think smoking can make a person skinny. BUT!!!! its without any scientific proof. OKAY. After the meeting when i step out of the shop, i felt so good! coz its fresh air even though its not really fresh. HAA. OUR PRECIOUS EARTH IS DYING... save the earth! =)

2007-02-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

Suntec City is SO SO big... I was lost at tower 4 level 1 today... Gosh.. so pai seh la. i din go to that part of suntec before, got sell food and stuff 1..haha. went suntec to look for shoe in the converse shop which is so so so far into the mall. walk until can there legs already swollen.HA. coz i got this 20 dollars voucher and today is the last day, so i was like looking for a whitish shoe, but then either no size or its out of my buget.ha.. THERE IS THIS WHITE LEATHER SHOE SUPER NICE!. but too bad out of my buget.$89!! i think i was in the shop for nearly 40mins ++ even became hi-bye friends with the 2 salesperson ther. In the end i bought a shirt instead of shoe and jacket. In my mind i was thinking like " i really need to spend the 20 dollars... so a t-shirt will juz be fine coz its not too ex and still can wear even if i find it ugly after i bought it." ha.. don understand wad i type also. kkez.. tml my new hp V3xx is coming!. finally.. hope i will get use to it ya. have been wanting a clam shell phone for years.. now finally can use. But i got a feeling i will be sick of it soon. =( gosh this entry is like shopping spree entry.

2007-02-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

1000 years later where will i be?... most prob will be in heaven enjoying the fellowship of the saints if Jesus is to come within this 1000 years...Sometimes i have been wondering things that is still far away..abt my future, wad i'm going to do and stuff... yupz.. sometimes its good to have dreams of what you will be like in future but sometimes its really headache to think so much..ha.. Have been preventing my mind from thinking abt all these things that are still quite far away... Quite stress abt getting back my result... i scared i need to retake a module. =s. haiz..hopefully i can get a C or D and i will be glad =). Today my branch manager return back from his holiday! and its not a good news for all of us.. From the moment i step into the shop, i already saw his bao qing tian face.. gosh. so BLACK! then i was like liew so black how to attract customers sia.. then after he went out, he return with a change of face..ha.he begin to smile, the 1st smile of the day i think... then he told us abt his trip..blablabla... ok back to normal..phew. AFTER 20mins! GOSH back to square 1.. i piece of black charcoal again! see already also sian. Then suddenly he said"ATTACHMENT de, you all sold any labtop today?" we said " haven " then he said" then what are u all waiting for?" liew! feel like giving him a slap on his face sia. there is no customer also, then at that time i was reading newpaper.. he so sudden la.. then i put away the paper and stand up... see no costumer then sit down again..ha.. his mood like weather la.. cheena:"SAY CHANGE THEN CHANGE" so quickly. THE BEST part of the day : An uncle who always bring food up to see who wans to eat came to our shop with sandwich.. then xiao pang 1 of my colleague negotiate the price for the sandwich for some time. the here he goes again "you all look here(the uncle) no need to look out for customers issit!" THEN HE BANGED THE TABLE WITH HIS HAND! crazy! this time really feel like using the tennis racket to whack his head la!. haiz.. was wondering wad if i cant control my emotions and juz scold him or treaten him.haha..BUT CANNOT SIA, then i need to do attachment again. But i think GOD spoke to me and made mi remember of my morning QT, perhaps when i was so pissed with my manager, God wans mi to see that its not the thing that he does(those rude and weird stuff) that matters but is how i reacted to it. Have i really over-reacted..haha.. mayb yes, coz he's telling us to focus on the job that we are doing...to approach customers and sell labtops!! arh... HAD a tired day today.. every morning really have to crawl out of my bed..so jia lat. haha...ming tian hui gen hao!--> "tml will be a better day! =)"

2007-02-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

Are we happy plastics people??? I admit i am... And i'm sure most people are.Sometimes we really put up a strong front to let people know that we are fine. tsk. Sometimes we really have a motive behind the things we do. Sometimes we do things to gain favour... BUT why these things are happening?? y cant people be naive and innocent?.. Today went to school to ask for a transfer with ian. but the *toot* ITP manager don allow then told us to tok to our EEE lecturer. BUt he's juz pushing the ball away to him, we thot there is still chance only to our surprise the EEE lecturer told us that if we can be transfer he wont tell us to look for him already. TSK super chek ark! So i guess i need to struggle for another 7 weeks. Meeting all the weird weird people u can find in SIngapore. Gosh.. ian sold 4 labtops today! best salesman i think =) can ask him to treat when u see him..haha..juz kidding. coz we dont even know got commission annot! Haiz... everyday i sit near the door staring out of the corridoor, can really make me stone there watching at all the funny actions Singaporeans are doing, sometimes it is fun sometimes its gross! kkez lets burn away the mask and be ourself, be the original _______(your name) that GOd loves! signing off cheerful boy =))

worried

2007-02-21T00:53:00.000+08:00

Suddenly become a worried man.. So really worry about so many things!! God please help mi.. Please take away my burden, i juz wanna leave a life that is carefree... BUT who doesnt. TSK. Life is always so everchanging... one second you heard abt a good news and before you knew it a bad news juz came crashing into your life. haiz.. When can i really become carefree again.. when i spend my days after my retirement on the mountains of new zealand?? dun wanna think so much le.... worries juz make a person unsatisfied...

death

2007-02-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

People are dying every second if i'm not wrong... Haiz... life is so short, and i am always wasting my time away, slacking and stuff.. How wonderful it may be if only i can find meaning in everything that i do. Really have been wasting my life away just like that, tsk! you all must be wondering why this yong jie always write such sad things, like making people sad like that. I'm not a saddist OKAY!. Today is chinese new year, everyone is busying collecting angbao, but during a long evening nap, i received a message from my friend cassidy. He wishing us a happy new year follow by a news which sadden mi. his Ah-Ma juz pass away this morning. Still remember those days, when my "gang" when his house.. his ah-ma thot i was cassidy's cousin.HA. then keep toking teowchew or hokkien i forgotten..ha. then there is once this incident that happen, i'm sure they remember.. while we were so engross with our Playstation game, she farted!.. then we keep laughing.. then she say in THE LANGUAGE that a fart that can be heard is not smelly and a fart that cannot be heard is super dooper smelly..haha. so cute.. her grandma is already 80+. i can say she is a cute grandma =) Cassidy if u are reading this, i juz hope u can continue to be strong and look forward to the life that is infront of you. anw, he's in commando suffering heh!. =P so proud to have a friend in commando! hAte to go for wakes, coz its reminds mi of this sentence my friend told mi during my ex- officer's wake. "I rather u all come and attend my wake then i attending your wake" ....haiz.. i also agrees with him. HEY PEEPS its CHEENA NEW YEAR !!! collected some angbao today and have fun with my cute cousins! and other cousins... the "mee sua" cooked by my Ah-Ma is the best!!! haiz.. juz feel that 3 days of holiday is not enough for me to rest and go back SIM LIM to work. Its juz too _______ for mi to work there..haha. =) [chinese new year is a time for everyone to become fat!!! Wheeeee =P]

1 sad entry

2007-02-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

YoZ!!! This is yong jie speaking..... Today was the beginning of my ITP. I got into a company in SIM LIM SQUARE!! It sound so cool but its not cool at all. Really felt like quitting once i step inside the office. The manager was smoking away..-.-" Then my whole day was like " ey, y the time pass so slow!" really hope i can get a new company.. i felt so uncomfortable working in the enviroment, people speaking hokkien vulgarities like as if that was their main language. TSK TSK... I am like a salesman there.. i think i AM.TOO much things to complain about... haiz... nvm.. i shall write the entry which i always wanted to write about. around 1 year ago yufan introduced me a japanese drama serial " 1 litre of tears" which i had just recentlty watched finished... gosh i really took 1 year to watch even though it only has 11 episodes.haha.. It was a good movie which is sad.. really will let a person flow 1 litre of tears out of their eyes...='( . The show is about a 15 yr old girl who was diagnose with some disease forgotten the name, this disease will made this girl AYA, who once was a star player for her school's basket ball team slowly lose her ability to walk and then even cant speak. coz the disease will make her muscles to lose its ability... haiz.. but she still continue to live on though she faces rejection and mocking from people around her...she died in the end. but leaves a super great lagacy behind, because of the diary she wrote before she found out abt her disease till the day she CANT hold a pen......... i really was encourage, many things juz flow inside my head.. though i forgotten some already..ha. look at AYA, even though she got such an unexpected disease she is still able to live on happily and even touch so many lives juz by her diary, her story. So peeps, even though the footprints you leave behind may not be obvious, you may think that you are juz a nobody with no talents or whatsoever, but i assure you through your journey, people will be able to see the footprints, the example, the role model from you!.. God made each and everyone of us so uniquely and different, every1 is different and every1 has their own strength and ability. life is short, really have to spend each day meaningfully, not like now ITP.HAHA. Got once my friend has this nick " doctor say i left with 13 days to live, but on the 12th day i died" not the actual sentence but something like tt. The guy thot that he got 13 days more to live but he donno on the 12th day he died. We all donno when we gonna be taken away by God, thus lets live everyday as if its our last day on earth. =)
My Song taken from the soundtrack " 1 litre of tears" makes me emo everytime when i listen to it.